Lost all contact with my son

When i was 19 the man i was married to was abusive! I have a son from that relationships when things got really bad I moved back to my families in ky, My ex was doing nothing to help us at all we had nothing and I was very young we could not get help from the state for the fact I was still married to this man he was a E5 in the army ,well my family told me they would help my son and myself just after a few months it must have been to much on them….They told me I could not have my son there or we would have to go…

They talked me into giving my son to him, my ex told me he would not keep from our son he also had it put in the divorce papers that I did not have to pay support and he would fly him to see me one time a year but as soon as he got him in his care I was pushed out!

I would call just to be told not to call back. A two years latter i went to work overseas I was trying to get my life together. When I got back home I was told that my ex got married and this lady was calling telling my mother and grandmother that my son was not my son he was her son, my ex went to court and there was a adoption on the grounds I didnt pay. but like I said he put in the papers that I didnt have to. I did nothing to for this man to do this to me. I was young and they had the upper hand they didnt send me anything in the mail and I was also working for DOD overseas I just dont see when people want to hurt someone so bad I have been waiting 18 years to talk to my son but now I dont know what to say to him and I really dont think he cares they have had all this time to him against me.