I’ve never missed a payment but I’ve been in arrears for five years

I’ve been paying csa for over ten years and for the past five years maybe six I’ve been in arrears which is amazing as I’d never missed a payment at that point apart from sickness as I’ve ms I now only work 3 days a week due to my illness but still I’m in thousands of debt with csa I’ve wrote 100’s of times emailed even try to take my own life as things have got that bad and they have away of making you feel the lowest of low me and my now partner are forever falling out over it as she can’t understand how difficult it is to deal with these people at Belfast.

This week I’m quite lucky because after paying csa and normal bills I’m left with a pound so it’ll take me all weekend to spend that I wish I truly don’t know what else I’m able to do as they are a law to them selfs I’ve inform them off my illness and that I have quite a bit of time off work at my worst which is all unpaid but yet they want paying for them weeks as well which adds more to my arrears. I did ask if this was personal as its a Belfast office and I was ex British army it dose make you wonder well thanks for listening and I wish anybody that’s in the same boat got lucky you’ll need it