Ex only using me for money and won’t let me see my child

This is why my angry is so strong.

Friend said infertile. Gets me drunk. One incident later pregnant? I am not happy. She is angry because of this. After lost off abuse, name calling etc. i gave her hundreds of pounds worth of stuff for coming child. Then i was locked off. didnt see again till child was a few days old back at her mums. Fell out again coz im self employed and she took me csa when she wouldnt allow me to see child and i stop aid.

They ask for 120 per week based on my earnings 2014. I am self emplyed and work a few month at a time.The gap between can not be know so I need a float to keep my company going. Recent she contacted me on the correct path. Sorted out all the things missing and more. Spent near £2000.00 while paying her 100 ever 2 weeks. In mean time she got csa asking me for £120 per week. Now our son is kitted out again. I cant see him. Got to sort it with csa tho she said she was cancelling it? Im not on birth cerf tho the name i suggested are. I called police on her to make it stop the abuse on one occasion.

My account sent a letter advising the wage im on out company earnings to keep thing nice till i get a long contract, but it has been ignored. So to stay focused ive been ignoring them back. Paying that would shut me down. 2014 was 2 years ago. And they keep asking tho I have told them I am not even to that level or even at all now. Feeling like a dna is needed be anything else. Why would I not be wanted on cert but yet expected to pay. on paper there is no dad by the mothers hand???? So i have no parental rights. Kid goes to the mum b4 me. How is this possible. The stress it causes is best ignored till court.